not a good morning

on a morning when you want to remain in your own shell. spend time as you want with out interacting with others. and then you have to go and present a funny script to the client. that's what i hate the most. besides so many other things.

RUN

run. as fast as you can.
run. away from the dos.
run. away from the blues.
run. from the norm.
run. from the born.
run. that's your escape.
run. that's your only grace.
run. as fast as you can.

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yeah, i am writing after a long time. not because i had nothing to write, but because i had so much to write. so much was going through my mind. but i didnt really want to share it with anyone. except the people concerned. call me shy, insecure or whatever.
anyways, lately i have been havign these thoughts of massive unfulfillment. before your thoughts wander to take shapes of visuals, let me clarify, it's is grossly in terms of work. nothing fulfilling is happening at my workstation. there's this emptiness. a void. a vaccuum.
and then you a watch a piece of work like Gulal. some said, they walked out of the hall depressed. depressed?? where was the time for depression? when you watch a work like that, all you are left with is inspiration. wow! how well piyush mishra's pen has worked. what magic. i suddenly wanted to write in hindi, but i was at a loss of words. i wish i could write something like that. sheer beauty.
i remember my school days. there was so much to learn. the other day i wanted ot pick up an algebra book, just to be in otuch with learning. i had done that once before too. almost 5 years back. learning was so fulfilling.
i guess i need to learn something new.

जय हिन्दी

कुछ दिन पहले कोई हम से पूछा की हम किस भाषा में सोचते हैं. जवाब देने में हम को दो सेकेंड भी नही लगा.
हिन्दी. पटना में तो फिर भी हिन्दी दिख जाता है. प्रेमचंद की कहानियो का संग्रह,
टागॉर की लेखनी या शिवानी के उपन्यास. परिवार में अनेक लोग थे जो यह पुस्तक पढ़ते थे. यहाँ
पता नही क्यूँ हम प्रसिद्ध हिन्दी कहानिया भी अँग्रेज़ी में ही पढ़ते हैं. और अगर हिन्दी में कुछ
लिख भी दें तो बहुत गर्व महसूस करतें हैं. जैसे कोई बिल्कुल अजूबा कर दिया हो. देवनागरी जैसे लिप्त हो रही है. न्यूज़ चॅनेल भी रोमन स्क्रिप्ट में न्यूज़ लिखते हैं, अधिकतर. लेकिन अगर आप अँग्रेज़ी अख़बार भी देखे तो कई बार आप पाएगें की अग्रेज़ी का वाक्य सीधा अनुवाद है
हिन्दी वाक्य का, यानी, किसी ने हिन्दी में सोचें वाक्य को वैसे ही अँग्रेज़ी में लिख दिया.
और सिर्फ़ अख़बार ही क्यूँ, कई बार वार्तालाप करतें वक़्त भी हम हिन्दी में सोच कर अँग्रेज़ी में बोल देते हैं.
वाक्य बिल्कुल ही अटपटा लगता है.
यह लेखनी क्यूँ लिखी? शायद बहुत दिन हो गया था अपनी मर्ज़ी का कुछ हिन्दी में लिखे हुए. और पढ़े हुए.

BMW vs blueline

9 years back a Nanda ran his BMW over few people. it hogged the limelight then and has been on the front page since. recently when he was sentenced 5 years of imprisonment, the media declared that justice has been done.
every week the count of people killed by the blueline keeps rising. the news finds a column in the 3rd or 4th page of the newspaper. the media doesnt raise a hue and cry. why this differential treatment? well, i have figured out why.
the nanda has committed two crimes. one he is a rich man, which is a crime in our poor country. and then his car ran over poor people. had he crushed a rich lad on an expensive bike, i guess it would have been ok.
on the other hand, the blueline is driven by a poor guy. forget the seth who owns the blueline. it's the driver who is present at the site of the crime. so a poor man committing a crime against a poor man doesnt make for a good story.

yateem

that's the name of the movie i watched this morning. i have seen it once before too. last time it was at my masi's place. well, she wasn't really my masi, but my cousin's. we lived in a big joint family. so my cousin's masi was mine too, as were his/her nana and nani. anyways, this masi lived in a haveli. by virtue of her marriage. and this haveli was on the outskirts of patna and on the banks of ganga. walk out of the haveli and you could stroll in the fruit orchard, (are orchards only for fruits?), which was spread over acres of land. it was a beautiful setting for her house. anyways, she divorced him and is now settled with her second husband in dehradun. i have heard that she has an equally beautiful house there.
as a kid i had enjoyed this movie immensely. though i didnt remember the story, just bits of it. so when i chanced on it on Set Max this morning, i had to catch it. and i am happy that i did. unlike other bollywood movies, here you'll see Sunny Deol bathing under the waterfall in his unbranded boxers. him swimming in the river showing off his well built body. and Farha is standing on banks looking at him with lustful eyes. it was refreshing to see this role reversal in Bollywood. till recently, when feminism was high on my agenda, i would wish to cast men in minimal clothes. it was my revenge for what men have done to women in the show business. and for that matter i liked Om Shanti Om, the way Farha Khan made a spectacle of Shahrukh Khan's body.
i think yateem too must have been directed by a woman.

no divorce in hindi

for the last few days i have been searching for the hindi word for divorce. but apparently there's none. which brings me to this perplexing thought that they really believed in the '7 janmo ka rishta' philosophy. and this isn't comforting.
apparently, the hindu way of thinking also emphasises the existence of opposites. so beautifully highlighted in the movie Aks. so, if there's a 'shaadi', there should also be a, you know what i mean.
but then, history also gives us an example. ram had separated from sita. but nomenclature didnt adopt the act. so i guess the act is quite prevalent. but when you talk about it, as rahul puts, one comes at a loss of words.